Monday, December 27, 2010

Rememberance

Well..it has been forever since I posted. Life has gotten in the way of most things I enjoy. Today is a bad day for me; for on December 27, 2005 at 10:00 pm; my world came crashing down. My father passed away. My father was a great man - everyone loved him. He never met a stranger and would give a stranger the shirt off of his back. He helped everyone. He was my repairman, carpenter, electrician, mechanic, and the person I called when I heard a noise at night.

I recently bought a house and many times I wish he was here to see and help me through it. Because he would know what to do. He would know how to make my washer and dryer work in the room I wanted it in. He would know what was causing that leak that nobody else can seem to figure out. He would know how to fix that squeak in my floor. He would know why I have ice cicles the size of my leg running off the roof of my house. And he would have already taken care of most of them.

What I miss most - his silent laugh. The grin he would get on his face and his belly roll and you never heard a peep from him. But you knew he was laughing and trying to keep the tears from rolling down his face. I miss his thoughfulness.

He never got to see his only grandchild graduate highschool. He never got to see his first great granddaughter be born. He will never get to witness the happiness in his granddaughter's eyes. He will never see that his great granddaughter is doing the same things his granddaughter did as a baby.

I miss him so much - there are times I relive that night over and over. There are times I just think it was a dream. Daddy's are supposed to be around forever.